I could go anywhere but back. I drove recklessly with no particular destination in mind, plowing forward, unaware of anything around me. Everything once in a while, I had an urge to jerk the wheel quickly to the right, running the car off the road, or sharply to the left and plow across the median and "accidentally" forfiet myself to the home-bound rush-hour taffic. The effects from the outcomes of the decisions I was responsible for making weighed heavily. scenario I : would find myself, learn how to fulfill my potential as long distance mother. I would likely never feel certain I had made the right choice to disturb our family ecosystem so as to allow for the hope of peace and growth. div> i had no planned direction to travel in besides "AWAY". I continued on at a barely-legal speed, my vision blurred by the flood of tears I could not control. I tried to focus on- but also forget abouy- every inch I put between myself and the heart-crumbling scene I wit...